*sigh*

Its been a long time..
I shouldn't have left you..
With a dope blog for you to read thru..

LOL..pardon me and my random Rakim moment..
and sorry for not updating like I should've been.
Life has been rough lately..
and I've just been trying to process and breathe and not catch a case thru it all.

But,
I'm back..
and once again, here to vent.

Right now, Im feeling like..
all relationships can be tricky at times..
but it feels like the ones I have (with family and friends)
are just...undescribable.
I try to be supportive.
And I try to not to ask for much from anyone.
(hell, I have a problem asking for anything..)
But sometimes,
I feel like..
I'm just not important to those that I love.

Is it that hard to call me?
Or to text me?
Ask me how my day is?
Or if I'm ok?
What about making me feel special?
Feel loved?
Important to you and your life, even..
Must I consistently get at folks..
It feels like I'm reminding them that I'm alive..
here for them in their corner.
Makes me feel insignificant..
small.
Worthless.
and just not important to them.

I've noticed that I've been feeling this way for a minute now.

And it fucking hurts my heart.

And its not just with one person,
its with everyone in my life.

So, what to do now is the question?
*sigh*

I know I will watch this Eagles vs. Colts game tonight..
relax..
and ponder on it.

I hope all of you have been well..

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