Slaughterhouse ~ Microphone

If you love hip hop, there's no way that you won't love this song..
4 Talented MC's, a crazy beat..a microphone's all they need.
Get into it, dammit.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

This Right Here..

Makes my soul smile..

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Meth & Red ~ Dangerous MC's
[DOWNLOAD] Method Man & Redman - “DANGEROUS MCs”
(and they have the BIG sample on there too?!?)

Real hip hop.
So Crazy.
Waiting for Blackout 2 to drop on May 19th..


Monday, April 27, 2009

Can I Live..

Life has been royally kicking me in the ass for the past two weeks.
I've had more difficult conversations..
I've cried more tears..
I've been more scared than I've EVER been in my 25+ years on this earth..
And just when I think it can't get any worse,
it does.

I've lost many friends during this time.
I've been lied to, betrayed, deceived..and even yelled at.
I mistrust those that "supposedly" love me.
And I feel more alone than I've ever felt in my life.

I'm the type thats always there for other people,
so it hurts especially bad when folks aren't there for me.
Or, when they are but it feels like they're doing it just to be nice..
Or just to say that they did it, so that in the future they can ask me for something..

I'm not built like that..
So I cant understand that.
And it hurts even more because of it.

I have seen who is there for me..
Who truly does love me..
I've been sent a couple of angels to let me know to keep the faith,
to show me that good people really are out there.
People that truly love me, and have my best interests at heart..

I was just told by one of those angels that..
"God wouldn't bring someone like me THIS far,
sew together all my wounds,
nurse me back to health..
Just to take me from away from those that love me."

I hope that angel is right..
and I hope that is the lesson to be learned out of all of this.

Soundtrack of My Life:
Can I Live ~ Jay-Z
Regrets '09 ~ Lyriciss
Keep the Faith ~ Faith Evans
Regrets ~ Jay-Z
Everyday Struggle ~ The Notorious BIG


Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Ahhh..The Meaning of the Purple Tape Revealed..

Anyone who knows me, knows that I'm a music fiend.
Some would describe me as a hip hop head (that wears stilettos, of course).

And, I've always loved Raekwon's "Built for Cuban Linx"..
*as you can see by the "Incarcerated Scarfaces" video at the top of my page*
Finally, Raekwon revealed WHY the original cassette tape was purple in the video below.
(I couldn't have been the only one that wondered why that

Ahh..true hip hop awaits with the release of "Only Built for Cuban Linx Pt. 2"..
I can't wait!!!

Soundtrack of My Life (WuTang Edition):
Incarcerated Scarfaces ~ Raekwon
Protect Ya Neck ~ WuTang
Bring the Pain ~ Method Man
The Abduction ~ Tony Touch f/WuTang
Apollo Kids ~ Ghostface Killah
All I Need ~ Method Man f/Mary J. Blige


Why Does It Hurt So Bad..

Sometimes, relationships..all relationships can cause pain.
Its even worse when you look back on your past, and realize that its been nothing but failed relationship after another.
You've given yourself, your ALL to a person ~ seemingly all in vain.
You start to feel unworthy of a relationship.
Unworthy of love.

I've come to realize that is truly not the case.
Everything in life happens for a reason ~ those relationships FAILED for a reason.
They were not the right person for you.
Those relationships were placed in your life to teach you a lesson.
The pain is meant to strengthen you.
It prepares you, your heart and your mind.
The pain shows what you what you are made of, what you can withstand.

And you are supposed to learn from it ~ what you want out of a relationship, what you want out of your better half ~ what you need...
So that when that right person comes along,
You can love and be loved the way you need to sustain your heart.

Let go of the bitterness,
The shackles that bind your heart.
And open your mind and heart to the possibilities that can be out there for you.
Its hard to do,
but worth it in the end.

Remember ~ insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting to get a different result.
So, try my advice.


Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Lindsay Lohan's eHarmony Video Dating Profile..

Funniest shit I've seen all day..

Glad to see she has a sense of humor about it all..
Hope she gets her life together..*sigh*


Friday, April 10, 2009

My Apologies...

This morning, I woke up and swore I was gonna start my 3 days of "speaking my mind without any regard to people's feelings".
Because I'm the type that (secretly) loves everyone, wants to help everyone, wants to see everyone succeed. I'm the type that will give someone I love my last dollar and not eat if it means that they'll be okay.
So... you can see how this giving nature can have a tendency to fuck me over on even my best day.
I've learned over the years how to walk away from people, see the signs that someone is using me, to make sure that I'm ok before giving to someone else..but still, I get played regardless.
And this morning, I just got fed up with it (pent up feelings are a bitch, i tell ya)..and decided to combat those negative feelings by (honestly) not being true to myself ~ by putting more negativity into the world instead of the love that I always do.
I decided not to care about others feelings, thinking that would make me feel better..
but instead..I was shown another way.

The ceiling just literally fell down.
I just got a call from a friend of mine.
I was about to cuss my friend out for not responding to my text messages & phone calls..and he tells me that..
His dad died today.

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I cant think of it as ANYTHING BUT a sign from my higher power..
Telling me its okay to love too hard. To care too much. To value my friends and family above all else because you never know what will happen to them at any time.

As much as I feel unappreciated at times, unloved at times, battered and bruised and praying that God would take the hurt and pain away from me during other times..
I know that those core people in my life do love me. And do value me.
They need me as much as I need them.
And I love you all.

Sorry for letting the negativity overtake me.
Please forgive me.


Thursday, April 9, 2009

I Wish...

..I could fuck every girl in the world..

I know I should be ashamed to like this song, but dammit ~ its a guilty pleasure of mine..
Its sooo wrong,it's right.


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To make you shake your head in agreement (or disagreement). To make you laugh, cry, and share with your friends.

Its not meant to offend, so if I do so at any moment, I apologize in advance.

This is just me - my ramblings, my thoughts, my life (or as much of my life as I'm going to give to the world wide web)..

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